Love? What is love?

I honestly don’t know exactly what it is about, tho sometimes I think I have a kinda clue about it.

Well, when I was a young little girl I thought it was supposed to have love in your life, just to ‘fit in’. Probably because I was the older child in the family and my brother was beloved by them all (like every son out there). Now, after a few years and broken relationships, I am still not sure what love is about. It’s giving you so much, but still nothing at the same time. While being in love we feel like we are floating on clouds, looking through the pink glasses and there is nobody out there except one person and ourselves!

Now wake up and come to your sense… cause there is one important question still out there.

How do I recognize the right lover/partner? Good question. Next one, please! I am not so sure about it and I don’t want to be either. Some of those ‘come-and-go’ relationships, wich we are having during our lifetime, are always leading to the same goal: They cost us more strength than being useful. It always starts so perfectly and sweet, you feel drunk and high at the same time – sooner or later we’ll get sober.

- The guy you are in love with is wearing the brands you hate most or he’s into things wich you don’t even like – laughing to things wich you don’t even think are funny. Oh, and then his flat or better: he lives with his parents and is independent as your chihuahua – not at all.

I know, your thoughts right now are:
‘If he would be the right, all these things wouldn’t matter at all.‘ Belive me, one day you will meet him, the guy who takes your breath away. The guy, you have been longing for. The guy, who’s taking you to Prada for having wild sex after some shopping – in front and inside of the shop windows. He, who wake’s up in the morning by smelling like pure sex (of course he wasnt taking a shower before).

Or even better…

He’s there when you need him and he cries by watching ‘Titanic’. He gives you surprises by taking you out for a dinner, a weekend in New York, daisies instead of roses – he really appreciate you.

And now it’s getting scary…

He enjoys the time with you only by talking about everything and nothing. Yes, of course! Who of us doesn’t long for a person who doesn’t think a relationship is there for fighting wars or having some kind of power game or to defend territories or… gosh, to lose his freedom or…

The alarm bell usually rings at the same moment, but to listen to it was never our strength.

So, how are we able to find someone like that? Here we go again, same day, same question.
Maybe there is more luck if we would look in the corners, where the shy people are hanging around.

Those who are able and want to give love, are those, who don’t like being in public all the time!